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Is it time yet? I'd been asking myself this for so long yet I find no answer to this sad question. Should I change it or not? Arghhh. Hate making decisions, totally. It irritates the hell outta me.
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The only damn reason I didn't wanna brought it up is because I don't want it to get worst. Don't you get it? I don't know whether it's a trend or what, but after talking over da matter, it somehow gets worst. From questioning, it'll all be blames and wrongdoings by the end of the day. I hate being interrogate, alright. I hated how things worked out and the way you called it off just like that. Like hello? You asked and later you just shut me off like that. Like excuse me?And, being emo isn't all that good. Thinking about the matter makes me doubt my trust in her, seriously. Things changed completely after I found out about this issue and it had been bugging me ever since. I constantly thought about it. It affects my emotions sometimes. Time didn't seem to help at all. ARGH!
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After the incident, when the clock strikes 10.30pm yesterday, tears of sadness and anger rolled down my cheeks. I can no longer stand her bloody attitude. At that time, I couldn't even pull together a complete sentence. Somebody asked what I was doing and straight forward enough, I replied 'crying' and hit the send button without thinking twice. His reply was just 2 words long only. And hey, I bet you don't wanna know what was his reply. From there onwards, I felt a deep big cut inside me. I never recongise that feeling. It's as though the person I knew from the start has turned into a complete self-centered stranger. I choose not to reply such jerk. At the very same time, I ended my conversation with B with a 'bye' word only. Apparently, he was quite busy and wanna catch a show at that time. My mood totally went off. After that I was still chatting with A ( I was texting 3 people). Tears were still streaming down and I decided to tell him what happened. Suprisingly, he comforted me with his ever sweet yet lil dirty words and obviously showed that he care. I managed to draw a mild smile on my face. I felt much better after that. I've known A since what? Lower secondary? yeah. He was the one going through thick and thin with me throughout the whole time. Yesterday night was a total disaster. FUCK IT!
6 comments:
owh dear.. I had juz experienced sumthing like dat not long ago.. *sigh* even though the main cause might be slightly different, but the circumstances tat took place after dealing with the person is sumthing like urs.. cheer up dude!! and i m glad that A made u smiled.. tc!
omg, really? know what? the feeling totally suck. I hate how things turn out always. Things seldom turn out the way we wish, sadly. Damn. Anyway, thanks for your concern. and, hope you don't feel down all da time too. It's bad. LOL Hearts. :)
I know we're not close but hey. I CARE!
I know you care for me from the way you hugged and squeezed me like I'm some sort of bloster to you. Correct? HAHA. :D
Wei don't reveal my secret lah! *blush blush*
Bolster, I mean. LOL. HAHAHA.
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